Shock

Shocked.
A friend of mine said "it is nothing to get 4 flat if bla3... and how much time you spend on dawah and how much time you spend on study?"

For me, it does not matter if you spend more time on study compare to da'wah.
IF WE COULD PRODUCE SAME LEVEL OF RESULT.
We are human, we are not robot. How can a human be two identities at one time. Just simply say, being engineering is my way to spread da'wah.

I wanna be a successful caliph
I wanna be a successful abid
I wanna be a successful engineer
I wanna be a successful in dunya and akhirah
I wanna be a successful!!

If our aim to build a daulah islamiyah
Then it is not a problem for us to be an engineering
Please never complaint on my behaviour TT

I am not as good as you are.
Thats all

Perjalanan

For me, i don't think this path is suit for me. A lot of torture and exhausted. Yes, tarbiyyah is hard but no all person can accept all this torture.

I wanna run a very very long journey
I wanna run a very very long journey
I wanna run a very very long journey

So should I left study, and keep on continue this fighting?
Should I abonden all this?
Ya Allah assist me, your despicable abid.
Ya Allah, I'm confused

It's hurt. I don't know what to proritise --" I'm feeling that no one could understand me TT

...SEBAB HATI ALLAH YANG PEGANG...

Ya Rabb,
Sometimes I think of,
Why you chose me?
Why you give me this chance?
Why should I face this obstacle?

هَلۡ أَدُلُّكُمۡ عَلَىٰ تِجَـٰرَةٍ۬ تُنجِيكُم مِّنۡ عَذَابٍ أَلِيمٍ۬ (١٠) تُؤۡمِنُونَ بِٱللَّهِ وَرَسُولِهِۦ وَتُجَـٰهِدُونَ فِى سَبِيلِ ٱللَّهِ بِأَمۡوَٲلِكُمۡ وَأَنفُسِكُمۡ‌ۚ ذَٲلِكُمۡ خَيۡرٌ۬ لَّكُمۡ إِن كُنتُمۡ تَعۡلَمُونَ (١١

O you who have believed, shall I guide you to a transaction that will save you from a painful punishment?[It is that] you believe in Allah and His Messenger and strive in the cause of Allah with your wealth and your lives. That is best for you, if you should know

Yes, only selected person can arrive until that level. Once you arrive, still many obstacles you will face with. bla bla bla..

Ya, Rabb gives me strength, gives me an energy which boosts my potential, which enhances my understanding. If one day, I lost all this, please ya Allah "pujuk hati ni" TT

MY BACKGROUD

Assalamualaikum and hi.

Before I start blogging, I just wanna let you know (just thinking that someone will read this), 

1. It might be my online diary

2. It just my another solution to upgrade my English

3. It will be the place for me to share my knowledge on certain things.

Therefore,
I really hope the readers will help me to fix on my language and I admit I might not be a superb in English and just using a normal vocab but I hope it will help me even not now but sooner.

" A THOUSAND MILES BEGIN WITH ONE STEP"

I'm seeing my future as the most precious one and I wish I am not the one who ruin it but the one who colour it. My desire will change who I am now.

Will publish soon as I love it much.